Today Tiffany wrote about Doing It Scared. It is something that really resonates with how I am feeling. It has been such an encouragement to see God move people to come around and support our journey. We did a little promotional video to try and explain what we are doing or maybe why we are doing what we are doing. My Dad watched it, and his response was, “you need that gut-wrenching plea. Show them the desperation to get there that I see every day.” (We are privileged to be spending these last few months before leaving for Ethiopia with my Mom and Dad.)

As a funny side note: My Dad is a crier… (as am I) and when I was promoting at my home church for a summer camp at which I grew up and was a director, I was telling one of those gut-wrenching stories… My Dad sensed the tug of the story and within two words of my telling it was a crying mess in his pew…

The truth is: I am desperate. I am dying to get over to African soil. I know when I get there, I will do my very best, and that it won’t be good enough at times. I know there are many people – children – we could be helping right now, who by the time we get there will be a statistic, one of the 23,000 plus that die each day. It kills me, it eats at my insides… and yet, this season is here for good reason. I have learned so much about myself already in this journey. God has been refining me, showing me errors in my thinking, showing mistakes that need to be mended from my past before I am to experience the future.

The truth also is: I want it to come from God. The reason I don’t want to beg, plead, tell gut-wrenching tear-jerking stories, is because I want the scandal to be all His.

And it will be scandalous.

That He would use me. That He would use us… to move mountains, to care for boys and girls from the streets, that are so worthless to the world, but so valuable to Him. There will be scandal in that, and I don’t want to have to ask the question “Did this happen because I compelled them?” or “Was this all just an emotional stirring by me?” I don’t want to answer to the idea that I was the source of some fundraising emotional plea that got big donations with big promises. No, I don’t want that. I want everyone to look at this broken mess (me) and ask, “How did that happen?”

And I won’t be hurt, because I know the secret of how He works, and who I am…

For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”” (1 Corinthians 1:26–31, ESV)

Are you ready to join the scandal of the Kingdom with me? 

Prayer Requests:

  1. Please prat that God continues to move people to give through the 50fifty50 campaign.
  2. Please pray that our board would be filled with wisdom and discernment from the Spirit as we continue to work through the steps of moving to Ethiopia.
  3. Please ask God to move mountains in Habi’s court case for his adoption.
  4. Please continue to pray that God would prepare our hearts for His mission.


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